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still thinking....
i have been scared all day. i know he is out of danger but my heart is scared, I have been aware of the thin cord that attaches us to this life I have watched patients leave this world and go to another. I have been with friends as they pass through what the undefined mist is. I felt my father leave his body as he looked me straight in the eye as I smiled at him and told him we would be alright. The potential of losing a child of ours is too monstrous to hold close to myself for too long because it becomes almost real. The images, the despair, the loss is stirring of reality. I swat the images away like flies, only to have them buzz about my head when I am least expecting. I have no control over the kosmic reasoning in life and loss. I do know how fragile it all is. Life and death are both balancing on a pinpoint and the least offensive of winds can send the whole thing down. THANK YOU FOR SAVING HIM. THANK YOU FOR SAVING ALL OF US,
Danny
javascript:show_story('116121') I havent gotten any calls in my life so far that concern my kids and take my breath away-- in a bad way. Today i got one about my nephew that took my breath away and I cried for a good hour afterwards. It seems my nephew Danny and his buddy were on *! in NY state going for their tuxes for the prom this weekend. The driver avoided another car and overcorrected and went over a guardrail and flipped the suv they were in. My nephew was knocked trapped for a few moments in the car and then crawled out from the back seat out into the grass where he was found unconscious. He was taken to the hospital and treated for a concussion and scratches on his knuckles and forearms. The scratches they believe from his trying to get out of the car while suspended from his seatbelt. My sisterinlaw called and I just fell apart. I always feared one of those calls but this was scary, it seemed forever to hear her say he was alright. My already fuc%^^#$ heart w...
Mothers day.
I had a nice day. The girls got apicture of all three of them together and that is good. I so love these kids and if I have a day to spend with anyone it would be these people in my life. I am attaching a few of Jack and his room with the trains and a bath pic but the posed ones are from my thoughtful Mothers day gift. I also got a gift certificate to the local nursery for a tree for our yard from ANdy. That was really a thought out gift and I am so excted to find the perfect "baby" for our yard.