Flaming June's Love

I have a blogger site that I go to every few days to check in on. I never comment her becaue she has alot of friends and family that tell her enough, more than Iwould know what to say. I read her blog because in a sick and twisted way (full on honesty here)- her pain puts my loss into perspective. She delivered twin boys at 32 weeks, One boy survived and is perfectly well, small but well. The other child suffered severe brain damage from incompetent placenta and lack of O2. He lived a total of 6 weeks and then died inher arms. They were not aware of the severity of his injuries until after his death. They believed they were going to be bringing home two healthy boys until a few days before his death. OK what am I getting at. Well she made a very very profound entry the other day and it has taken me a while to digest. She has gotten a few negative comments from readers concerning, "their loss compared to her loss and how she only had her son for 6 weeks and she shoudnt fe...

I had a really nice weekend. My brothers werer in and came to our house for dinner. Friday night was dan and my Mom and I thouroughly enjoyed their company and then on Saturday Brother Dave and his wife Lorraine were here with everyone else. I had a livin breathing home for the first time since we moved in.m We had kids and adults and family and some really good hard laughs. It was a very good thing. I was shocked at the end of the evenin with a puking Jack, But he was kind enough to hold back until everyone was leaving. He had the pukers through the night and got up in the am as nothin had happened. At least he is better. All in all it was a good time. Allie took my nephew Danny out for the evenin with she and her buds. Interstingly enough Danny is from upstate NY so the whole party at a college is not something he has quite hit yet---- unitl last night. When they left they were oing to a movie then home. Well they did go to a movie then to a home of sorts, A FRAT HOUSE ...

The answer to all evils in my house today? Yup Teddy Grahams. I have decided the child will weigh three hundred pounds but the screaming and fits MUST STOP!!!! Going for my walk packed the grahams, going to the grocery store grab the grahams, gettin the Missi from school gotta have some grahams. It is and always will be the answer. My boy was an angel today and I am in love with hi8m again. Call back childrem services I am not leaving him on the square today. And as I have learned from the years of ... years, Just today is all I can do. So all is well in my world for the moment, I hope to attach some of Missis new passsion Photography and you will see she has some perspective. I love her. I love Allie, Jack, ANdy and yes Santa claus I love frggin everybody today. Cant say for sure what tomorrow may hold but who am I to complain.

Have I mentioned how hellish my son can be? Well HE IS EVIL!!!!! There are days when I truly feel like leaving him at the square and checking in once a eek on him. Today was certainly one of those days. I took him for a walk he didnt want tog o where I wanted to go so he cried for a good 20 minutes. He was wild and rough and didnt listen and cried a whole lot. I think his frustration level because he doesnt talk is getting to him. He repeats alot of things but I dont know what he is saying and then he starts to cry, or scream, or run around like a whacker. Then there are days when he is an absolute angel and I cant get enough of him. Today.... Not so much. I told Andy today that he probably should start looking for a younger wife because I am too old for this stuff. He didnt agree. I am attaching some pics from the weekend, I hope you like them.