Flaming June's Love

I mnetioned my teacups and I hope you can appreciate them just a little bit with this pic. I have two other cases full of the pretties. The other pic is of the kitchen and the lights that I chose for the island. I know they dont look like much but they again are things that I love. While on the topic of LOVE here ismy boy Jack adn sionce I havent posted ina while you can see he has been growing while I have been away from my computer. He was sick for a bout a good week and lost a few pounds which is a ltot when you only weigh thirty. He is pirking up and starting to come around. His pic of him sleeping is a glimpse at his father asleep. The similarities are really starting to show. I went to the lawyer today and if i can say that it was the worst I mean it was the worst. The women that I met with are the paralegals and nurses that reviewed my Dads case. They were all there inthe conference room and i knew something was up when they were all there. I went in and his chart was all...

FLOGGING MOLLY LYRICS "If I Ever Leave This World Alive" If I ever leave this world alive I'll thank for all the things you did in my life If I ever leave this world alive I'll come back down and sit beside your feet tonight Wherever I am you'll always be More than just a memory If I ever leave this world alive If I ever leave this world alive I'll take on all the sadness That I left behind If I ever leave this world alive The madness that you feel will soon subside So in a word don't shed a tear I'll be here when it all gets weird If I ever leave this world alive So when in doubt just call my name Just before you go insane If I ever leave this world Hey I may never leave this world But if I ever leave this world alive She says I'm okay; I'm alright, Though you have gone from my life You said that it would, Now everything should be all right She says I'm okay; I'm alright, Though you have gone from my life You said that it would, Now ev...

I know I have received some flack concerning my lack of writing lately. But with all my heart intact as far as I know I can say that we are officially into our new home and it is feeling mor and more like home everyday. I have put my teacups up in the kitchen and those of you that know me know that they are my babies. They look beautiful and are on the walls of the nook and the light in ther is beautiful so my little treasures are just showing off all day long. I have put some window treatments up but nothin permanent. I am getting along fine and think we can be alright here. A few new things going on. I o to see the lawyer tomorrow concerning my Dad and that will either be the begining or the end of the case. I thought I wanted it to be the begining but honestly I kinda hope it is the end. My heart still hurts ona daily basis and the guilt that I feel is still there. Selfishly I want them to say that there was nothing done wrong and he was just ready. I have feared all along ...

As you can see I am the luckiest woman on the planet. My little girl went to her first formal last night and obviously she was truly a vision. She was so calm and cool. More than i thought she would be. Her date was a cute shy young man, but as we all know those are the ones to be careful of. LOL She had a great time and cant wait to get dolled up again for prom. (If she gets asked of o\course) They went in a limousine and she got some beautiful roses. i am so happy for her she has had a few rough years with being the LITTLE sister and I think she has hit her stride now and coming out of her shell. Now nelieve you me she is not candidate for Miss AMerica, she may look good but she is certainly opinionated, and not afraid to speak her mind. so red carpet... not so much, cover of vogue. Yeah... Other pics of the house. My guy and our son hanging around tweaking things this am. As you can tell we are getting there, but not quite yet. I am happy though. I think I am really happ...

Yup it is official, we are the address 501. Andy and I have talked for the past five years about the potential at the address 501 you know what street. He more than I to be honest, but anyway. I have bought more magazines with the idea of the house we were going to build at 501 someday and tonight, yes tonight we are all here and feeling.... love. I will be attaching some photos of the place and might I say in advance there are some things not quite there yet, molding and curtains but I am so in love with this place. Andy and I sat at the kitchen table about two or three years ago and chose the floor plan and I dreamed of the kitchen looking into the family room and now I hope you can share in my joy. I baked a carrot cake this am and enjoyed my kids watching tv and laughing together. We had a wicked ice storm today so We were all home other than ANdy. Andy will be leaving sunday and wont be back until friday so a long week ahead. Love to all and talk to you soon.

Yes I know it has been extremely delayed. I have been distracted and very busy with everything that has been up lately. First and foremeost Andy is fine since his encounter with chest pain the other day. He was fully evaluated and no apparent cardiac issues at the moment. If we could get this house done we could get started on some routine exercise program. I am losing a few pounds here and there I believe from the stress of it all and being so busy all the time so that is good. The house is beautiful BUT and hter is always a BUT it is not quite done yet and I am going to finally sleep there on Sat night. That works out to Tomorrow night. Our new bed arrives tomorrow and ANdy is building the railing that is necesszry for Jack to be there and that will be it. I can wait to wake up inthat new house and with all fo its booboos and unfinsished corners it is ours. I am hoping tha we will have computer access there before too long so that I can start posting real posts again. I am s...

yes thats right I am not feeling the love. I am definately feeling the stress of not having our own place. My husband was in the er yesterday with chest pain from the stress and I am feeling as if I have made huge errors in judgement. I look down the street and the lights are on in my "old" house and I just want to go home. I want my life back. I want my home back. I am not feeling it. not one bit. My gorls are doing their best to be flexible Jack is doing his very best to be a typical two yr old boy and I, I am doing just fuc&*ing great at being disheartened, discouraged, disappointed, deflated, and completely Fucker$R%ed. Good thing are good though, American Idol starts tonight and I can say one thing for sure, I am not going to be one of those buttheads being embarassed tonight. NOTE TO SELF> Next year when AI starts up again I will be in better emotional, physical and spiritual shape.