Flaming June's Love

We had a taste of winter for a few days and it felt kinda good. With the time change it is feeling really cozy and I just want to cook and bake and stuff. Today and tomorrow have been forecasted to be warm and beautiful so Jack and I took advantage and wandered up to the park. he loves it. He just runs and I think feels independent. I worked on alot of the photo and I have trouble getting them to blogger. The first one of Missi is her cracking up about something-I dont know but she definately is getting that Angelina Jolie thing going. The lips the full brow and she is just as beautiful inside as out. These past few months have been such a huge growing time for her. Allie is well and getting along fine. She has been complaining of headaches but I think it is stress from midterms and such. I suffered the same during college and found that as soon as midterms were over I was back to normal. She will be home next week for Thanksgiving break. We have a bilco door and garage doors an...

My Immortal lyrics I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase [Chorus] I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along [Chorus]

I am going someplace I shouldnt. I am shaking awake a part of me I thought I laid to rest. There is a concert coming to our local arena/venue. Evanescence, the feeling is so right there I want to go but am so afraid. I had an experience 3 and a half years ago and this music was so a part of my life I truly lived it. Every song from the album/cd just integrated and almost became a part of me for a while. Intense yes, should it be scary no, but it is for me. I made some bad choices, hurt some people, and in turn really really hurt myself. Along with at the same time the preemptive strike that began the whole downward spiral I ended up in. Long story short it was a bad time for me and my ego, self esteem, leading to self destructive behavior. I dont know why I am writing now and why I am compelled to stir the proverbial shitpot, but I knew the day would come that I would need , NEEEEED to come to terms with myself. No blame, no finger pointing, just plain acceptance. That is what I n...

Lie I said Jack was a sick boy for halloween. So on Sunday we got him dressed for the late holiday. He ran around the yard and waited for Nana tog et home from Church. He was so cute and just I cant say how much I love him. He now has a cough that when he breaths he coughs a lil cough. Annoying for him and mind blowing for me. He lil coughed all night, all morning and I anticipate all day today too. Excitement at Daycare, yesterday i picked him up and I knew soemthing was up when my favorite aide approached me with that UHOH smile. She handed me an incident report paper and said well " Jack was playing with another child and the child misunderstood his hugging him as a threat and BIT HIS EAR!!!" FU%$#in kid Ill kill him which one is it. They of course cant tell you which one it was but I encouraged them strongly to keep Jack away from them. This is not because I am overreacting this is because this kid (whoever it is) has done this before I know that because they to...

Five years ago on a Saturday night with my then guyfriend Andy, we would have started the night with a nice dinner, an evening of drinks with friends at a local bar and then good old raucous sex until morning. I remember trying my hardest to get home before my dad would get up for the paper which was usually around 6 30ish. My Mom and Dad would keep the girls overnight usually one night every two weeks so the nights we had all night, yup we had allll night. There was one night when I did fall asleep and woke up and it was light out. OH MY GOD I GOTTA GET HOME. Then it hit me Andy picked me up last night so I gotta get the bear up to drive me home. Double shameful it is 7 in the morning and "that guy" is bringing her home. My dear friend Maryellen that passed away in Jan called me one morning and was teasingly saying "Oh Suzie there was s strange car parked in front of your house all night. I called your Dad and he said he didnt know whos it was so he took a walk down ...

Here is one I wasnt supposed to see but shit it is funny. She was a mardigras bead girl for halloween with her friend danielle.