Flaming June's Love

A few people places and things have been swirling around the ol' brain lately. I have felt reminiscent about old days, old people and the way things "could" have been. I mentioned (absentmindedly) to my current husband that if I had been such a fuck up I could still be married to my first husband. He was very kind and didnt freak out but I realize it wasnt a very nice thing to say to him. I think that situation started our weekend off with the proverbial BANG. I drove down Friday to pick up Allie from school. A two hour drive when accompanied by an adult that can read a map. When a two year old is in the back seat screaming along it takes two and a half. I can usually get somewhere without difficulty the first time. This trip that I have taken probably 0 times for different occasions to Philadelphia just befuddles me every time. Construction and numerous junctions of highways that intersect all along a three mile stretch just makes me drive like an 80 year old bl...

sad face for school. "mom is a dork for taking my picture while i brush my teeth." The front door. It will be painted red after we move in. The fireplace space on the bottom and the windows up above. A long shot of the formal living room with kitchen cabinets in boxes, insulation and boxes of bathroom fixtures, pipes and stuff. I havent written about the house in a while. We had a little set back since the builder had to finish another job and leave ours for about 4 weeks. So now we are back working and it is really going fast now. The kitchen cabinets are in, the basement and garage floors ar poured. The french doors are in. The front door is in. I will attach some pics. Today was Missis first day of school. Strange without the Bert but all is well. She looked beautiful and I got to take her today. I picked her up at 1130 and she had a good day. She lost abou ten pounds since summer and definately has lost her baby look. I am excited for her. I will attach the p...

It seems lately that my pics are Allie and Jack. Well here is my "in home rocker" Missi. She has the sense of humor of a 30 yr old and often gets taken as brusk, hard and misunderstood. She is misunderstood, because she is none of those things. I can say that if anyone was to bring a hungry stranger home it would be Missi. She talks to anyone and usually appears to have no fear of strangers. She is watchful, intuitive and mature. She is not the type to forget though. She may forgive but not forget. Sh eis going away for the weekend with a friend to the beach for their last weekend. Her friends parents own a home on the beach "that has an elevator in it Mom." Usually unaffected, she is excited to go with her. Allie is doing well and has called a few times to let us know she is alright. Jack has a new injury to the lid of his left eye. Not stitches but you know the old saying, "a hair of an inch closer you would have lost your eye kid.." Wel...

Miss Allison looking more like sh should come home with me than ever. No really she was so excited, brave, beautiful, friendly and everything anyone could want. The strangest thing happened when woke up this morning, my Dad was at the foot of my bed, no really... anyway. he said "Dont you cry, youll only make things worse, so suck it up Suz and be the Mom today. Your doing a great job." I havent cried a drop. Here is the hall she is on. Room 3 on the left. Jack crawled up on Daddy while he was nappping on the couch. Hugged him and watched his tv shows. The boy planning something.

Girls being silly Jack exhausted and sleeping. The time is creeping by without me mentioning it. Everyone else is talking about it but I am not saying much. Today is the end of Tuesday. My girl leaves on Saturday. I actually will be taking her to college. You know the imaginary place where our children turn into adults and we no longer worry, love or breathe every breath for and with them. I have a familiar feeling in my throat. The one that is a happy but close to tears all the time. I can cry with the thoughts of driving away. I probably dont have to say much more than driving away. We have shopped and shopped and talked about this and that except for the driving away. Today as I was giving Jack his bath and Allie was getting dressed fro her "girls night out" she asked how Sat was going to "work" I said the anticipated, unpack all the shit, make the bed, get your books, put in the rug, hook up the phone, put money in the account at the bookstore. blah blah bl...