Flaming June's Love

Missi on the left 15. Allie onthe right 17. This is the night they were very very bad girls. The local Parochial HS that Allie just graduated from is closing and consolidating with three other HS's from the county. So Bishop Hoban HS is no more. Missi will return in the fall to Holy Redeemer HS. Make a long story short they thought fun would be to break the law and steal the letters from the sign out front the school. They are lucky they didnt get arrested. But they got away with a B and an H intact and split the scene. Allies buds posing infront of the sign they were about to deface. "Good Catholic School Girls" mhhmphhh The girls down the shore. They dont look alike but they are definately sisters. I am so proud and happy they are getting closer all the time. Pictures from a RAVE party they were at. I know the Rave party's have bad rap but there were no drugs involved ... only alcohol. (bad enough but what can I do about it now.)

Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind. We remain behind, all of us in my family. My mother, my three brothers and their wives and my 4 nieces and nephews. My children who are daily reminders of how wonderful a life I grew up with. My husband did not, and still does not have a positive male role model. His father left them as children. He remains a negative highly critical man. Last week we brought Andy's dad to the house and there was not one positive comment. too big, too expensive, unnecessary. you cant take care of this. infuriating. I couldnt help bu think of my dad who would be there everyday to watch the progress and chat with the workers and learn something everyday. I am an evil person but why is it that bad people can live forever and my Dad is in a fucking box in my moms bedroom? Why is it that his Dad is almost 70 and has three kids that he doesn...

Missi at her Anime convention this weekend. I dont understand the whole thing but it seems to be harmless Artisitic nerdy kids hanging out together. Im ok with that. Can you see just Missis eye peaking out from under the blankets and pillows here. I thought it was cute. The boy with something on his mind- and something in his mouth!!! We are home from the beah and everyone is home now. Missi went away for the weekend and Allie got home last night so I am surely keeping everyone under roof for a few days. I like being away but surely love being back home. We really did have a nice trip and it was what we needed I think. I will put up a few pics from the week. We have a party today to go to and then hang out in the yard and swim in the pool for the day I think.

Jack watching the lifeguard do pushups. It was so funny Jack then got on the sand and was "doing" pushups also. Images of his future. I love him too tooo much sometimes. My two boys. How can I stand to look at these two and not love every bit of the both. My Missi deep in thought during one of our conversations. I found out alot of my girl and I love her more all the time. Jack and Andy during the fireworks. Jack is soo tired int his pic but hanging for dear life. We are still here at the beach and enjoying the trip. Today they gave tornado warnings for the shore points so we didnt go to the fireworks on the boardwalk for they were cancelled. We do have the opportunity to enjoy individuals fireworks fromour balcony and our window. The boy is not too sure about them though. He looks and then closes his eyes and wraps himself around Daddy. I have a photo below of that. Missi is enjoying herself and we are spending some quality time together. We spent yesterday toge...

This is one thing we needed desperately. We are in Ocean City MD, At the moment I am sitting on the bed and looking out at the beach. Missi and Andy are Go cart racing and Jack is sleeping soundly. We spent the afternoon on the beach and relaxed after a long ride down here. We had a ncie dinner on the patio of the hotel with the band playing really nice. I am feeling so much better than Ihad been. I am living one day at a time and just feeling what today is going to be,. I am am enclosing pics from the day.

Lucky Me. The grad Jack and the beer keg The morning after. I will write more later.

I need a kick in the ass and then feel free to hit me really hard in the arm. I am a selfish and self absorbed sloth. I have spent the past two weeks whining about my "lack of control" and feelings of lacklustre, when truly all my complaints are within my own realm of repairedness. Babble with nonsensical words, but true. I need to relish and enjoy my kids new worlds and be grateful they have these opportunities. I was bitching about my kid in Europe, That is truly WHACKED!!!! I am sad because my daughter is growing up and doesnt want to tell me everything. NORMAL! I clicked my way to a blog today of a woman who just lost one of her two sons at birth. Twins and one died a few weeks later. I have the audacity to complain because Jack is a running, messy ball of snot and dirt. He is also the first to hug me in the morning, he wakes with LIFE in his eyes eager to go and find. He says MAMA and knows it is me. A first since his ear surgery. My husband although at t...