Not much, but everything.

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Home from our vacation and it was lovely.  It was so nice to have Nana along.  She was great company and really broke thing upf or me.  Jack was also happy to have his best girl along.

I will post a vacation post soon.  But first I had to post this idea for today.

I was sitting on the back deck tonight.  Andy was weed whacking I was reading my book after cleaning up from dinner.  Jack was in the shower.
I thought "How simply simple this moment is!"

How easy this all is for me at this point in my life.  Everything is just right.  Nothing is hurting, or angsty, or troubled.  Of course there are those times, believe me I have THOSE times.  But in a nutshell its ALLLLLLL GOOOOOOD right now.
My girls are happy, and most importantly EVERYONE IS HEALTHY right now.

Although they are my babies, my girls are getting older and the potential for illness or injury becomes more real everyday.  I think about that.  My grandson,is gaining weight and finally growing.  He is smart and sweet so I am lucky and happy.
I do know Andy and I are getting older and I worry about his health.   He has gained a few pounds and I worry he wont get them off.  Its not good for him. 
But for now, this day, this night we are all happy and healthy. 

July 4th I am doing a 3 mile race.  I checked last years times and I should end up in the top third.  That is good in my mind.  Just dont be last.  Or second to last.  LOL

Jack told me tonight that he is going to run the race as well.  I explained I am nowhere near able to keep up with him.  He said
"I am running this for you, so you know I support you and I am so proud of you."

Yeah, truly I have everything.

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