focus, and go.

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You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you

Mary Tyler Moore

So here we are, the last week of 7th grade, and what a year it has been.
From the first day of school this year, the actual day 1 I knew it was going to be different.  I wasnt quite sure how or why it was going to change but I felt it coming.

From the first few weeks I discovered Jack chose to move his lunch table seat.

Thank God we have a relatively open communication and I knew it was coming.  We talked about what could happen, how his friends may feel or behave if he chose to "change things up a bit"

Weighed it and make the leap.  It changed alot.  Some really good and some painful.

Now that we are wrapping up 7th grade, he is grateful for the change as am I.
He has grown as a person and is maturing before my eyes.


It has always been hard for me to watch my kids struggle, no matter how old they are.  Even now as adults I want to FIX IT.  
I want to fix it, but I know I cannot in so many ways.  My job has been to try and guide, warn, observe, guide, advise, observe more.  Sometimes just throw out my ideas and suggestions and see if they stick.

My suggestions are not always right.  This Mom doesnt know everything.

He is happy and he loved this year.  The best year ever he tells me.  
He is brave and smart.
I am forever grateful for Jack in my world.  
He has made me brave and smart.

I love this picture of him running.  
He is focused and confident heading towards a goal.
One day at a time, one goal at a time, one milestone, lesson, heartache, challenge, victory.
One friend, one grade, one dream.

It isnt easy, no ones growing up was easy.  I am still struggling with my adolescent whims and feelings.
You go Jack, You are "the man" inside that long lean body.  You keep thinking and asking questions.
I love you forever and add a lifetime.



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