Fifty three

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Tomorrow I wake up and Ill be 53 years old.

I am in a better place than I have been in many many years.  I can conjure fear which I can breathe through and visualize living.  That is helping my anxiety.

I went to yoga tonight and it is a real beginners class but I feel good doing it.  The yogi ended the class saying something on the lines of
"Feel good about taking care of yourself, you deserve to be well emotionally, physically and spiritually."

Today was Jacks last day of 7th grade.  One year and he goes to HS.  I cannot believe it really.    He is tall and handsome, strong and sweet.
I remember days when I wondered if either of us would survive.

Here we are.
I love my kids and Owen, my son in laws and husband.
I am grateful for my healthy helpful capable Mother.
My bothers that are my whole world.
A job that I can tolerate, with a few people I enjoy.
A couple of friends, and I mean a couple.  But better have a two or three that are all in than more that are half assers.
Plus how many "friends" does one girl need when she has a family that is her whole world?  I need to hold onto that.

We are all learning, we are all growing.  Even at 53 I have a long way to go and HOPEFULLY a long time to get there.
God bless all of you that continue to love and appreciate
 who and what I am.

You are all in my heart forever.  Happy day to me. 

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