I'm good.

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Can you recall a tine in your life when you were really happy?
Did you know you were really happy?
There is a song or poem somewhere I recall that says "These are the days we will remember"

I was driving Friday evening with jack and my mom to Kutztown for a Cross Country tournament and said to my Mom.
I am really happy right now.
RIGHT NOW!
I was joyful!  I was feeling almost overwhelmed.
Was that menopausal hormone surges, the Holy Spirit, or just a glimpse of "the moment"?

I Was feeling physically well, my Mom is feeling good after her bout with Pneumonia and a 5 day hospitalization last month.  Andy is happy in his new job.  Really happy challenged and working hard is real good for him.
Our boy is happy and healthy in 7th grade.  He is trying new things and spreading himself out a little bit.  Scary, but good for growth.
My girls are good.  Owen is good.
I feel good.
So guess what I am happy!!  It may last a day, an hour, a week, a year.
I dont know but however long it goes I am riding the train of
Today is good, I am blessed beyond measure and am so grateful for the love, friendship, experience in my life.

I want positive in my life, I want encouragement, understanding, flexibility, cooperation, kindness,
Gentleness.
I am working on attracting the postive, cynical and critical has no room. 
This is the time of year that I can get "blue" "sad".
Hopefully being ahead of the ball will help stave off the blues this year.

Love to all.

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