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11:08pm January 31, 2012.
Almost 2013.
It has been a good year. I'm ok with it. I'm feeling pretty satisfied with myself and our lives right now.
My daughters are good. My son is growing stronger and smarter everyday.
Andy and I have had a few of our hardest days this year, but also some of our best days this year.
His surgery was tough, my catheterization, a test... that we both passed physically and emotionally.
Allie graduating, passing her boards, working her big girl job.
Missi turning 21, gon got school, working her job as a good checker girl.
Jack sticking with it hard work in first grade. Leaps and bounds.
Me... starting a new job, and loving it. Letting go of some old friends that disappointed me. Then reaching out a bit further to embrace new friends.
I am sad for the times I didn't move, speak, smile, chat, give more, encourage more, open up.
I am grateful for the times I believed, forgave, hugged too long, kissed a cheek, held a gaze, smiled long, waved hello, held a door, gave a friendly wink.
Our trips out the mountain, were highlights.
My girl moving out, a big deal, that still makes me cry.
The wedding of the century with the entire family. super.
Finding my old friends from Ann May School Of Nursing, and our weekend together reintroducing each other and discovering what the last 25 years has done to each of our dreams.
Kathy P-reminded me a few times this year that some people are just... our people.
A lot of nights with a sleeping boy next to me, hot, sweet, arms wrapped around me, feet stuck between my knees to warm them. fluttering eyelids with dreams passing right beneath the surface. What a sweet boy as he can dream of is beyond me. As long as he wakes with his smile and good morning Mommys, I am a happy woman.
My Man... The most loveable pain in the ass, that is my dearest, most valauble companion, partner.
I have cried more than I needed to, mostly from being the weepy too sentimental sap.
Far better than a stoic insensitive chit counter.
So for 2013. ?
What do I want?
I want nothing to change... Nothing too big. I am just right.
So as Im doen to 34 minutes to go,
Im ok.
I love you all too much sometimes, So much I cry right now with the visions of smiles from my children, Mother, Brothers, sisters, Husband, Students I've grown to love.
My dear friends that I imgaine great adventures with, or just plain old sit downs with a glasses of wine to dream and chat with.
I sit on my side of the bed, typing away here, while Andy is on his computer playing songs for me from Youtube.
His right elbow touching my left elbow.
Why? because we do that, we like it. I like him, on New Years ever 2013 I LIKED MY HUSBAND!!!
I love him for his hard work, big dreams, unbreakable spirit, unending desire to do something good for someone. Usually for me or my children or family.
What will happen this year? Something grand and terrific? Yeah probably.
Something sad and disastrous-most likely I'll be sad and discouraged sooner or later in 2013.
When that day comes remember, I will try to remember this night, quiet, satisfied, content.
Sleeping boy, warm cozy husband.
Happy girls with men that adore them.
A Mother that seems content with us and our lives, and hers.
Happy New Year to all, Comfort and Joy. My new years resolution, i will provide as much comfort and joy as I am able.
Love again.
24 minutes to go. Lifetimes..
Forevers.
Almost 2013.
It has been a good year. I'm ok with it. I'm feeling pretty satisfied with myself and our lives right now.
My daughters are good. My son is growing stronger and smarter everyday.
Andy and I have had a few of our hardest days this year, but also some of our best days this year.
His surgery was tough, my catheterization, a test... that we both passed physically and emotionally.
Allie graduating, passing her boards, working her big girl job.
Missi turning 21, gon got school, working her job as a good checker girl.
Jack sticking with it hard work in first grade. Leaps and bounds.
Me... starting a new job, and loving it. Letting go of some old friends that disappointed me. Then reaching out a bit further to embrace new friends.
I am sad for the times I didn't move, speak, smile, chat, give more, encourage more, open up.
I am grateful for the times I believed, forgave, hugged too long, kissed a cheek, held a gaze, smiled long, waved hello, held a door, gave a friendly wink.
Our trips out the mountain, were highlights.
My girl moving out, a big deal, that still makes me cry.
The wedding of the century with the entire family. super.
Finding my old friends from Ann May School Of Nursing, and our weekend together reintroducing each other and discovering what the last 25 years has done to each of our dreams.
Kathy P-reminded me a few times this year that some people are just... our people.
A lot of nights with a sleeping boy next to me, hot, sweet, arms wrapped around me, feet stuck between my knees to warm them. fluttering eyelids with dreams passing right beneath the surface. What a sweet boy as he can dream of is beyond me. As long as he wakes with his smile and good morning Mommys, I am a happy woman.
My Man... The most loveable pain in the ass, that is my dearest, most valauble companion, partner.
I have cried more than I needed to, mostly from being the weepy too sentimental sap.
Far better than a stoic insensitive chit counter.
So for 2013. ?
What do I want?
I want nothing to change... Nothing too big. I am just right.
So as Im doen to 34 minutes to go,
Im ok.
I love you all too much sometimes, So much I cry right now with the visions of smiles from my children, Mother, Brothers, sisters, Husband, Students I've grown to love.
My dear friends that I imgaine great adventures with, or just plain old sit downs with a glasses of wine to dream and chat with.
I sit on my side of the bed, typing away here, while Andy is on his computer playing songs for me from Youtube.
His right elbow touching my left elbow.
Why? because we do that, we like it. I like him, on New Years ever 2013 I LIKED MY HUSBAND!!!
I love him for his hard work, big dreams, unbreakable spirit, unending desire to do something good for someone. Usually for me or my children or family.
What will happen this year? Something grand and terrific? Yeah probably.
Something sad and disastrous-most likely I'll be sad and discouraged sooner or later in 2013.
When that day comes remember, I will try to remember this night, quiet, satisfied, content.
Sleeping boy, warm cozy husband.
Happy girls with men that adore them.
A Mother that seems content with us and our lives, and hers.
Happy New Year to all, Comfort and Joy. My new years resolution, i will provide as much comfort and joy as I am able.
Love again.
24 minutes to go. Lifetimes..
Forevers.
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