What makes you special.
Halloween 2012.
I recall a few years ago thinking how much I detested Halloween.
Taking jack out to trick or treat was an absolute nightmare.
He would run away from us, totally oblivious to our calls. He would push and grab and all the nasty things that kids we wish to LEAVE our door would do.
It was about two years ago when Ella was with us for halloween and she was so sweet and generous. I thought how someday Jack might be like that. I PRAYED.
Tonight, our someday was today.
Now believe me we are far from perfect, and everyone is.
But our boy was patient at the doors, he was kind to the smaller children.
He listened when we called to him to slow down, stop at the corners, don't run.
it really was a good night.
There was a little boy screaming at one of the houses as we passed.
It brought back memories of years ago when Jack would see something in a house and WANT IT.
He didn't want something, did want something or we had no idea what he was thinking.
Just screaming, yelling running, fighting, hitting, grabbing mess.
This boy we heard, sounded like our boy Jack. I looked for his Mother and thought.
"I wish I could help you, I wish I could hug you and tell you it will all get better. It changes but never goes away, gets better, then gets different. I'm sorry this is happening to you, you are a good mother, I know you love this boy when it seems no one else could. He loves you too Mama, even when you think he isnt even in there. I know you, I feel you."
We were trick or treating with Michael and Anna, you know Captain America and Lalaloopise?
Lesson of the night?
On our walk home, just Jack and I, we stopped at the house across the street from ours.
The home where the boy lives that is blind, deaf, and doesn't speak.
As we approached the house Jack said "Oh the boy lives here that screams all the time, he cant see or hear right Mom?"
"Thats right Buddy, God made him special"
"How is that special, he can't talk, or hear, or anything." God only makes things that are great."
"How many people do you know that can't hear, or see, or talk?"
"Just him."
"Thats pretty special dont you think, God made him one of a kind?'
"Yeah,"
We rang the doorbell, and the grandma answered.. Jack of course said "Trick or Treat!!"
Here is where the no filter comes in to play.
"Is the boy here that doesn't hear?"
"Nope, he is at his Daddy's house, but he will be here on the weekend."
"Would he play with me, what if he wanted to play with me how would you know?"
I know this is going to be a doozy...
Hold on Suzie....
This is YOUR GIFT...
"Oh we would know, if you come over, he would be very happy Jack."
"he is a very special person sent from God you know."
Grandma looks at me...
Looks at Jack...
and said.
"You are a very special person sent from God, sent for Joshua to have a friend."
Jack was quiet, true, never happens. all dragon costumed out.
"Oh I could be a good friend, maybe I will know what he is saying, maybe he won't run away from me."
"Lets try he will be here Saturday, come over then?"
"OK. I'll try."
"How many days until then?"
"Three"
"OK, maybe he will hear or talk by then?"
"No, that won't happen."
"OK. I'm coming over in three days."
"Thank you for the candy"
I stood there in this womans doorway, with her dog barking and front porch leaves blowing all over the place. Jack turned around long red tail swinging, and started down the driveway, headed to our home.
I smiled to her, said "I will see you Saturday."
"See you Saturday"
We got home dumped out the bookbag frull of candy, that he doesnt eat, and started our routine.
We are at a place I never imagined.
A Halloween I didn't wish I was somewhere else.
A happy boy, a smiling boy.
A happy Mommy.
Thank you God for our special boy, with all the bells and whistles.
OH BTW-
Don't worry he is still the unpredictable Jack.
He walked into a home down the street and said,
"Geesh your house smells like french fries! WOW!!! I have to get out of here."
Just shoot me.
Another house he went inside (when invited) and sat on their couch, looked around and said..
"You have a really nice house, who are those pictures of?"
Just shoot me twice.
Keep moving Suzie. Its all good.
"
I recall a few years ago thinking how much I detested Halloween.
Taking jack out to trick or treat was an absolute nightmare.
He would run away from us, totally oblivious to our calls. He would push and grab and all the nasty things that kids we wish to LEAVE our door would do.
It was about two years ago when Ella was with us for halloween and she was so sweet and generous. I thought how someday Jack might be like that. I PRAYED.
Tonight, our someday was today.
Now believe me we are far from perfect, and everyone is.
But our boy was patient at the doors, he was kind to the smaller children.
He listened when we called to him to slow down, stop at the corners, don't run.
it really was a good night.
There was a little boy screaming at one of the houses as we passed.
It brought back memories of years ago when Jack would see something in a house and WANT IT.
He didn't want something, did want something or we had no idea what he was thinking.
Just screaming, yelling running, fighting, hitting, grabbing mess.
This boy we heard, sounded like our boy Jack. I looked for his Mother and thought.
"I wish I could help you, I wish I could hug you and tell you it will all get better. It changes but never goes away, gets better, then gets different. I'm sorry this is happening to you, you are a good mother, I know you love this boy when it seems no one else could. He loves you too Mama, even when you think he isnt even in there. I know you, I feel you."
We were trick or treating with Michael and Anna, you know Captain America and Lalaloopise?
Lesson of the night?
On our walk home, just Jack and I, we stopped at the house across the street from ours.
The home where the boy lives that is blind, deaf, and doesn't speak.
As we approached the house Jack said "Oh the boy lives here that screams all the time, he cant see or hear right Mom?"
"Thats right Buddy, God made him special"
"How is that special, he can't talk, or hear, or anything." God only makes things that are great."
"How many people do you know that can't hear, or see, or talk?"
"Just him."
"Thats pretty special dont you think, God made him one of a kind?'
"Yeah,"
We rang the doorbell, and the grandma answered.. Jack of course said "Trick or Treat!!"
Here is where the no filter comes in to play.
"Is the boy here that doesn't hear?"
"Nope, he is at his Daddy's house, but he will be here on the weekend."
"Would he play with me, what if he wanted to play with me how would you know?"
I know this is going to be a doozy...
Hold on Suzie....
This is YOUR GIFT...
"Oh we would know, if you come over, he would be very happy Jack."
"he is a very special person sent from God you know."
Grandma looks at me...
Looks at Jack...
and said.
"You are a very special person sent from God, sent for Joshua to have a friend."
Jack was quiet, true, never happens. all dragon costumed out.
"Oh I could be a good friend, maybe I will know what he is saying, maybe he won't run away from me."
"Lets try he will be here Saturday, come over then?"
"OK. I'll try."
"How many days until then?"
"Three"
"OK, maybe he will hear or talk by then?"
"No, that won't happen."
"OK. I'm coming over in three days."
"Thank you for the candy"
I stood there in this womans doorway, with her dog barking and front porch leaves blowing all over the place. Jack turned around long red tail swinging, and started down the driveway, headed to our home.
I smiled to her, said "I will see you Saturday."
"See you Saturday"
We got home dumped out the bookbag frull of candy, that he doesnt eat, and started our routine.
We are at a place I never imagined.
A Halloween I didn't wish I was somewhere else.
A happy boy, a smiling boy.
A happy Mommy.
Thank you God for our special boy, with all the bells and whistles.
OH BTW-
Don't worry he is still the unpredictable Jack.
He walked into a home down the street and said,
"Geesh your house smells like french fries! WOW!!! I have to get out of here."
Just shoot me.
Another house he went inside (when invited) and sat on their couch, looked around and said..
"You have a really nice house, who are those pictures of?"
Just shoot me twice.
"
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