Flaming June's Love

So heres the story. I was really really scared. I don't want to leave any of you. I am so deeply in love with the characters in my life I am not ready to leave. And now my heart is now in good shape.  The same shape it was in when I left the OP seven almost years ago.  I have a totally blocked Right coronary artery but ancillary vessels ahve taken up the work.  My grafts are still patent.  great news.  I have to lose fifty pounds and exercise everyday.  I can do that if I can recall how scary it is to think you are going o die within the next few minutes. Walk... and walk quickly ... or die. hmmm. I believe I need to walk, maybe even run for the next few days, weeks, years. So now what to do? The last time I had the shit scared out of me I was jsut so glad to go home and be with my newborn baby and teen age girls. I am still that thrilled believe me.  I couldn't wait to get into my bed and have my girls and boy come visit me.  Except now...

I have been on the planet alive and kicking about 6 3/4 years longer than expected.  I have done some really amazing things in those seven years and have loved so many people everyday of those seven years.  Fridays procedure should be uneventful and I anticipate being home by Sunday.  In the case that it is not uneventful here are a few things I have to say. 1.  All the times I sat with my friends family loved ones and ate or drank something not on a heart healthy diet list, I dont regret a single minute or bite of them.  If we had laughs and good conversation then I am grateful.  Dont ever feel like you should have stopped me or something because that would have ruined our "moments" together.  I cherish every one of them.  Ice cream, burgers on the grill, alcoholic beverages, coffees, all of them I loved. 2.  I realize I have had my down days over the past seven years.  Those were days like everyone else has.  That my friends wa...