yes it is...

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A few pictures of the constants in my life.
Time goes by, people and places change but these people ARE MY LIFE.
Is it really that easy?
YES IT IS.
For me it is that easy.
Since we last chatted hmmm. lets see.
Andy and I celebrated 6 years of marriage.
Jack graduated from pre-k.
Missi returned home from college.
Allie completed her first year of nursing school.
I turned 45, whew..
My Mom went on a cruise.
We went to Florida, and when I say we I mean WE ALL WENT TO FLORIDA!!
Mom and I went to Boston for a wedding, just call us Thelma and Louise or maybe Bill and Teds excellent adventure.
I have become good friends with my neighbor and her husband.
Jack is still the most aggravating lovable pain in the ass.
So is his Daddy.
I have woken up every morning since going to Florida thinking about moving to New Mexico to be with my brother and sister in law.
Starting over-or maybe just restarting.
I miss my Dad now that his 5th anniversary is around the corner.
How did that happen, how did five years go by without him and we all have relatively survived?
We listened to dvds of old times out the mountain.
I heard my fathers voice again, my nana and pops voice.
I havent heard them in over 20years. And then.. they were right in the room with us.
I have been thinking why I dont blog much anymore.
Could it be Im getting better?
Can I be working through my thoughts... alone.
I dont know.
Maybe Ive said it all, maybe I'm bored with my own topics.
Maybe Im a boring subject anymore.
maybe Im spending too much time on facebook where I used to be able to blog?
My girl Allie will be 22 tomorrow.
I love her more than ever.
I got married on my 22nd Birthday.
How strange is that?
If she married tomorrow I think I might have to stuff her in a sportscar and drive her to Canada.
She may be in Love at the moment, She may be in love with LOVE. As she always has been.
Missi is working, looking for a car, still with her guy, three years now.
What does that mean? Oh God.

Jack, oh hes a smary pants alright.
Beautiful, smart, funny, and still JACK.

Ill try to write more.
I miss it.

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Tennessee Girl said…
Beautiful family! Thanks for sharing.
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