Flaming June's Love

Yeah.. My thoughts while at the gym, I look around at the bodies running walking, stairmastering, I check out all the bodies and ask myself do I look like that woman? hmm, is my ass that big. OH GOD tell me I dont look like that one I should just take the bridge if that is me. I was on the treadmill, singing away ( I am sure to make sure the people around me have headphones on before I begin my singalong....) whn the woman next to me who was bigger than I am, ( I certainly woulnd be next to a skinny minnie it woul dmanke me feel worse LOL) anyway she is walking with a passion I dream of. FAST real fast walk. then I am walking sweating and sweating more. She picks up he speed, now the woman is walking like a pacer. SHe has a towel and wipes her brow. I know all the details because we are probably less than 5 feet apart. Not difficult to pick up on. I keep on my pace and maintain my decorum sweating but not a sopping mess, then she picks up the speed again. Now SOB is running. ...

My brother Danny had a Birthday yesterday. I didnt call him. I had my phone out and ready to go and then totally lost the thought. I love him, really alot. So in honor of the brother that has the pnly winter birthday here goes.... 5 things I like about Danny.... 1. He doesnt seem to have an argumentative bone in his body. I could say I was ready to hack away at my belly fat with a butter knife and he'd say "really?, hmmmm. well I dont know about that Suz?" 2. He raised his boys to be good men. Danny jr. is an eagle scout and always seems to have a gentle hand out to help someone. Danny is the same way, gentle, wachful, thoughtfu. 3. He is smart, but nobody would know it because he doesnt flaunt it. 4. He can run really long distances and is committed to the gym. At this stage of my gymdom that is really really cool. 5. He knows, along with my other brothers and my Mom the worst day of my life. And no matter how raw and exposed we all ere that day watching our D...

OK alot on my mind- alot to say- but no time or patience to definately talk about all of it. IN A NUTSHELL!!! Facebook can either make you feel really successful or really shitty. I am still deciding how I feel about seeing people I havent seen in 25 years. NONE and I MEAN NONE seem to have children as old as mine. What does that make me well.... I have either gotten married young and had kids and then started my CAREER!!!!! OR I made my kids my career and have worked at a few jobs while raising them. OR I was doing the nasty without protection at a young age and got CAUGHT!!!! Second thing... the first person you ever had sex with 25 years later is still THE FIRST PERSON YOU HAD SEX WITH!!!!! Still turns your stomach into a basket of worms, still has that effect on your legs and makes you wobble a little and no matter how much of his hair is missing and how wrinkled his shirt may have been, Is still the guy you wish you had, at least for a little bit longer. I am fine and feeli...

I have learnt silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers. [info][add][mail] Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)

A few of my favorites and love to all.

Its not political for me today, Today is hope, pride, courage, and unity. Black, white yellow, I am proud to be American. Although there are people that are waiting for a problem and I know there will be, I prefer to wait for change, beginnings, brotherhood and pride. This is a defining moment in our history, like it or not, voted for it or not, the tomorrows of yesterday are today. I will blog again later with more static benign Suzidom I am sure but for right now I am waving out my southern most window to the Americans standing in the cold huddled together watching and waiting for the beginning of something new.

""Family faces are magic mirrors. Looking at the people who belong to us we see the past, the present, and the future"" Author: Gail Lumet Buckley My brothers were all in this weekend and I am truly blessed. My daughter got that tattoo last week and I felt blessed then, I feel it today. I will feel it tomorrow when our new President takes his oath of office. I am not a politically savvy person, but I do know what feels hopeful, courageous and brings a nation together even if for one day. How would my Dad feel about a black president? It could have gone either way. I know how I feel. I feel a bubbling unity, a desire to calm the disenchanted, an air of pride. I am excited for tomorrow, I am excited for the day after too. I am attaching pics from our night out all together. I missed my sister in laws but I was happy to have, "My Boys" They will be 90 and still be my BOYS.

Because You Remember Me Submitted by: Scrapsaholic Author: Unknown I know I am still with you in your prayers, your thoughts, your heart And though you cannot see me, I will always be a part of life's sweet celebrations in those times when you reflect on how, though things are different, through our love, we still connect. We'll see each other someday when our spirits all are free, until then, I am with you because you remember me.

Love this although I dont know what the message is for me lately. Just a few of my favorite things. Love to all.

A Danish proverb: "The road to a fiends house is never long" I am feeling this today. My niece left this am to go on back to New Mexico. Her visit was truly refreshing for me. She added a new feeling of... something else. I dont know if she has a peace about her that adds something more to the house. I think it is new perspective and I respect her. She is still a kid and we all have so much to learn but when you add someone new to the mix it is always a good thing. I think she found out about our lives and we saw a glimpse of hers. It is all good, and I now feel that I have a friend as well as a niece in New Mexico. the other night I mentioned something to the effect of a lesson needs to be learned at every stage of her life and she just needs to learn it in ITS time. She said well what is the lesson?, Sheeesh if I know Kay but there is a lesson in not rushing through life. She has had an opportunity to go to Africa as a volunteer for rape crisis which is her goal. ...

How lucky am I really. well I have amazing kkids, a loving husband, generous caring friends and nieces and nephews that make me want to stick around for this trip to see how amazing their lives turn out. Allie and Missi and Kaleigh went out tog et tattoos tonight. I knew they would do it while she was in but I guess I didnt really THINK ABOUT IT> Missi is underage so didnt get inked although she explained ot me what she wants when she IS old enough. SHe wants a Celtic tree of life with KTP scrolled into the trunk. A mix of both Moms Irish heritage and Dads KTP. thoughtgul, sweet and beautiful. The other two got their tattoos tonight. Kaleigh this is number four and she said this is it. Allie this is number two and it for a while. You will see them and my night with t he girlS and boy and Nana. It was a nice noght. My brother is comiong in tomorrow from New Mexico for ten days. I am very happy and look forward to some time to just chill and feel... comfort. All my boi...

Dear Dad, I hope you are doing well. We all miss you very much. We are now in the new house and I think we are all pretty happy. We went by the old house yesterday Missi and I, and it looks ok, but I still wish we were all there. I found this picture and thought of you. Is this where you are? Is heaven really in outer space or are you just somewhere around us in the dust and light that passes us everyday.? I hope that you arent too far away because I talk to you all the time and I hope you hear at least some of the stuff I talk about. Did you see the kids this week? They are having fun and being soo good. Mom is doing alright. She misses you and I think she is more lonely for you now than she ever was. I hope that you arent missing us this much. Anyway, I am still thinking of you all the time, I wish you were here to tell me the best thing to do, because I dont know if I make the right decisions all the time. I hope the time between now and when we see each other is not t...

My niece is here for vacation from New Mexico, yes why someone would come to PA in the winter from warm sunny new Mexico,,, it must be love. Anyway we are having a nice time and relaxing and kinda getting to know one another again. Time goes by and people grow and change, expectations are different and surprise, theres a new perspective. I am attaching some pics from the one evening with snow and Jack and the girls out there having fun in the "snow" slush falling form the sky.

I only follow four blogs. I read alot of blogs but four are all that really make me sit up and listen. If you peak at them you find married, religious, mothers, lesbians, republicans and democrats. Yeah I really like a mix. Kate from Sweet/saly is my favorite though. She has an incredible insight to her grief and love and mothering and womanhood and creativity.... and.... oh she just is all that good shtuuufff. The last two posts have put me into a blogging holding pattern. I can certainly blog about the house the kids Andy and my pretty boring life but I prefer to FEEL some topic and purge it to whomever is listening. I dont really know the politics of blogging but if I borrow her idea and follow her directions to find my own Vargas I will do it now. I truly took some time and searched the beautiful women her has captured and found her. Yes brunette, long legs, pretty big breasts but the reason I chose her for my Vargas is for two reasons the full smiling face and the mysterious...