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I have so many things going in right now but I dont feel motivated to write. I am uninspired. I can write and ramble about the day to day shtick. But the inside stuff is just a jumbled mess lately.
My boy is a challenge. Can I say that out loud without sounding like a horrible mom. He is a challenge and pushes my limits of understanding. I can love someone that drives me to the point of distraction? right? He is beautiful and sweet but he has his moments when he ust doesnt hear, listen, comprehend what I am saying. He is in Jack world and it takes more than a bit to get inside his world. His teacher reports to me that he is very smart and he is doing his "work" exceptionally well. His temper tantrums can be more than difficult. Yeah I know I have my moments as well. I am finding that if I ust move him from the area and talk to him for a minute he seems to calm down. But then hter are times when he just screams. loud, shrieking, shrill, bone rattling, teeth grinding screaming. He does this when he wants omething and oesnt get it or when he says something and we are not getting to it soon enough or not at all. Example" we drive past a movie theatre everyday to pick up Missi. He says see the show, see the show, over and over again as we pass, then when we dont stop he screams,. I drive another way and he can find someplace he wants to be or go. I wait for the screaming and sometimes it doesnt come..
This is why I am not writing this shot is boring and no one can make a suggestions that will change anything, so I dont even have the gumption to write at all.
I love him. More than there are words to say. I can smell his clothes and feel him when he is not with me. I make his bed and smell his blankie and love him. I just hope the next year or so goes fast to the point when he is talking and we can really communicate. I know he is an amazing boy I ust want everyone else to know it too.
My boy is a challenge. Can I say that out loud without sounding like a horrible mom. He is a challenge and pushes my limits of understanding. I can love someone that drives me to the point of distraction? right? He is beautiful and sweet but he has his moments when he ust doesnt hear, listen, comprehend what I am saying. He is in Jack world and it takes more than a bit to get inside his world. His teacher reports to me that he is very smart and he is doing his "work" exceptionally well. His temper tantrums can be more than difficult. Yeah I know I have my moments as well. I am finding that if I ust move him from the area and talk to him for a minute he seems to calm down. But then hter are times when he just screams. loud, shrieking, shrill, bone rattling, teeth grinding screaming. He does this when he wants omething and oesnt get it or when he says something and we are not getting to it soon enough or not at all. Example" we drive past a movie theatre everyday to pick up Missi. He says see the show, see the show, over and over again as we pass, then when we dont stop he screams,. I drive another way and he can find someplace he wants to be or go. I wait for the screaming and sometimes it doesnt come..
This is why I am not writing this shot is boring and no one can make a suggestions that will change anything, so I dont even have the gumption to write at all.
I love him. More than there are words to say. I can smell his clothes and feel him when he is not with me. I make his bed and smell his blankie and love him. I just hope the next year or so goes fast to the point when he is talking and we can really communicate. I know he is an amazing boy I ust want everyone else to know it too.
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