%raduation time a#ain...

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My beautiful nephew is $raduatin% from hi%h school tomorrow. I wrote about him last month followin% his accident on the interstate and truly sent me into a %ratitude spin.
My brother Dan and his wife it appears as if they are in the infancy sta%es of a messy divorce. He has met and fell in love with another woman and she (my sister inlaw) is broken by the whole thin%. I can understand her pain and if I could convince my brother to %o back I would but he is convinced this is what he needs to do so I love him and my nephews so whatever I can do to make it easier on any of them I will. Tomorrow will be the first "event" with both families. I am sure her family will be fine and I know mine will I just hope the tension isnt too much for my MOM.
My nephew Danny is attendin^ Penn Stae University int he fall and willbe livin% closer to all of us so I am sooooo excited for that to happen. He and Allie and Missi will have so much more time to^ether and hopefully for%e a new and closer relationship.
My latest worries have been scattered about the whole board. Be%inin% with Allie. I fear her reluctance to date the "boy next door" for all these years is about to catch up to her. He is now datin% someone and is not as "accessible" to her and I know she is feelin% alot of loss with that. She is still with the "boyfriend" of two years and he is as I have said all alon% a %ood kid but I hate to see her not date. More than that I would hate to see her let the one &uy in her life that truly understands her.... %0. Joe the nei%hbor has been by her side for all the &ood and bad. She calls him her best friend and when I catch her at the ri%ht time she admits to a LOVE for him that she doesnt have for anyone else. I know I shouldnt interfere but I so want tot ell her that this MAN DOES NOT HAPPEN EVERYDAY.
Missi on the other hand is the child I cant %et out of her room. I check on her all the time ask her to come qwith me places she %oes wsith me but doesnt want to make many plans with other people. She is very happy at home. SHe is out with the boyfriend toni%ht and will be happy with that for the weekend if that were the case.
Andy is dili%ently lookin% for anew job. Alot of hits on the resume and interviews and now we are in the second call back sta%e. The jobs are all comparable in pay and perks except the company car. They are hard to come by with the cost of fuel. Milea%e reimbursement but no vehicle, sooo in a family of three drivers and two cars we are headin into "%otta $et the %irls a car" mode. We are %oin% to wait until we decide onwhat job he wants and then work out the kinks of the car later. Thin%s could be worse believe you me.
Andy and I took Jack to the fair the other ni%ht and I attached the pics. He was so cute and rode the rides all by himself. such a bi^ boy. Of course had a fit when it was time to leave and fell asleep in the car on the way home. I worry about him every hour of everyday and just pray he will catch up with the other kids once he starts his new school at the end of the summer. I fear the dia%nosis of ADD Or ADHD is %oin% to come into play soon. SO dont be surprised when I spew ^uilt all over this blo% when that hits.
I will hopefully be attachin% some ^ood stuff to this post. I dont knwowhat yet but I am %oin% to browse my pics for anythin% that makes me .... me.

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