When did the elephant show up?
A dear friend made a quick observation that with my "awakening" of the good things in my life since being rid of the fog, I may discover an elephant sitting in the middle of the room that hadnt noticed before. Good bad or indifferent it is still an elephant.
Here is the thing about the elephant.....
I chose the elephant, I wanted the elephant, I fought for the elephant.
Now I MIGHT realize I prefer small sweet animals, maybe a quiet little meerkat or leemer or maybe go big and want a chimp.
Who the hell asks for a fucking elephant. I think the only people that ask for elephants are the ones that LIKE being overtaken and overshadowed by the huge animal.
Elephants are gentle and usually dont attack but the way I understand if you piss them off they will kill you and not think twice about it.
They are herbivores but still have monstrous teeth. They will step on you and not feel a single crunch. They charge at you and you dont know what to do but stand still and hope they miss you.
They do have huge trunks though. LOL
They also protect their children and families to the end.
My fog is clearing and I was tempted yesterday to refill my meds and take them again. I didnt but I thought about it. I am now down to ten MG every third day. I am sleeping through the night. I have dizzy spells but actually feel good.
I am now in the forth week of class at work and truly feel like I am using brain cells I thought long gone. I have a student that told me he hopes to meet someone like me when it is time for him to get married. Great so I am the mother figure and wife of the future for a 22 yo kid.
Why refill the meds? well, my elephant// I mean husband is a butt the last two weeks. A grade a miserable rubber band. One day he is fine, next day he is freaking out on me about food in the fridge or washing clothes in hot water when it isnt necessary. OK so I can leave lights on and I do have food in the fridge and then it goes bad and I throw it out. Doesnt everyone?
I am not spawn
Gotta go
Here is the thing about the elephant.....
I chose the elephant, I wanted the elephant, I fought for the elephant.
Now I MIGHT realize I prefer small sweet animals, maybe a quiet little meerkat or leemer or maybe go big and want a chimp.
Who the hell asks for a fucking elephant. I think the only people that ask for elephants are the ones that LIKE being overtaken and overshadowed by the huge animal.
Elephants are gentle and usually dont attack but the way I understand if you piss them off they will kill you and not think twice about it.
They are herbivores but still have monstrous teeth. They will step on you and not feel a single crunch. They charge at you and you dont know what to do but stand still and hope they miss you.
They do have huge trunks though. LOL
They also protect their children and families to the end.
My fog is clearing and I was tempted yesterday to refill my meds and take them again. I didnt but I thought about it. I am now down to ten MG every third day. I am sleeping through the night. I have dizzy spells but actually feel good.
I am now in the forth week of class at work and truly feel like I am using brain cells I thought long gone. I have a student that told me he hopes to meet someone like me when it is time for him to get married. Great so I am the mother figure and wife of the future for a 22 yo kid.
Why refill the meds? well, my elephant// I mean husband is a butt the last two weeks. A grade a miserable rubber band. One day he is fine, next day he is freaking out on me about food in the fridge or washing clothes in hot water when it isnt necessary. OK so I can leave lights on and I do have food in the fridge and then it goes bad and I throw it out. Doesnt everyone?
I am not spawn
Gotta go
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