Flaming June's Love

Andy and I went to NYC last weekend with Jack and had a lovely weekend. We walked the streets of NYC and explored Central park. We went to the Intrepid and a long boat ride around the island of Manhattan. It was a nice time. On our ride home we both called our immediate families. My brothers, mom and Andy called his mom and decided to call his father. His dad answered the phone and Andy wished him Happy Easter Dad. "heres Jean" My strong, capable independent husband visibly shrinks. He deflated in front of me. Why is it that a man that deserves no respect at all, from a son that wants only to have a father and grand father for his son- walks this planet AT ALL> Why is this selfish, self absorbed, small minded, egomaniac breathing, when my Dad is a box of dust and a few great pictures.? My daughters knew what it meant to have a Grandfather, not a Dad but that someone else that is always on your side. My son, who needs more men in his life because he IS A BOY, has NO GRA...

Someone asked me why the blog was named flaming Junes love, I explained my favorite painting was flaming June and that someone at one time LONG LONG AGO told me I reminded them of her. It is a happy memory and a beautiful painting so Here She Is.

Andy Jack and I were out in the yard all day Saturday. Some reason I was a cranky butt. Then I took these pictures within seconds of eachother. Then looked at them, and realized no one gets pictures of Jack like I do. He looks at me like he looks at no other. The look in his eyes? yeah that is him just LOVING ME. Normal Saturday hanging in the yard but LOVING His Mama. No need to smile, cheesy not necessary. He is beautiful plain old Jack with LOVE in his eyes.

XLIII. "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways..." by Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861) How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. I love thee to the level of everyday's Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. I love thee with a passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.

"Ashes" Ashes to ashes and dust to dust that's what has become of our love and trust Love has no direction cause love has no aim love can leave you as fast as she came Meeting is such sweet sorrow cause someday we may have to part hush don't you make a sound you're gonna let me down Good things come to those who wait but good things are gone from those who are late All that I am is all I can give but with or without you my life I must live Meeting is such sweet sorrow cause someday we may have to part hush don't you make a sound you're gonna let me down Living ain't easy since you've been gone no one else can please me or make me feel home Forgetting ain't easy you stay on my mind thoughts of us haunt me can't leave them behind

Today my Mom turned an amazing 69. She is staying with Rick for another month. ANOTHER MONTH!!! I love that she is away and enjoying herself. If I could do anything for my Mom for her Birthday..... I would get all of us kids together for a long vacation all together and just laugh. I would buy her all the flowers for her porch contest this summer. I would take her one night a week to the club for dinner to hang with her buddies. I would call her three times a day and visit more often. I would let Jack sleep in her bed with her so she could snuggle with someone again. I would take her to vegas and wait for hours while she played the slots. I would keep my house neater so she wouldnt feel like she had to clean every time she came to visit. I would buy her a raincoat with all bright colors so she would'nt mind going out in the rain. I would give her a summer from twenty five years ago when she lived out the mountain and LOVED IT!!!!! I would send her back to the house in Thornhurst ...