Flaming June's Love

"Fix You" When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down on your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Tears stream down on your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

Today I had the meeting with the local school district to discuss the possibility of Jack beginning Kindergarten this fall. I brought school work, pictures he has drawn and a few notes from his teacher. When I sat down at the table with the two women I introduced myself and then asked for them to remind me who they were? One was a rep fro the Early intervention that has Jacks case since he was two, the other woman was a child psychologist. OK? They quickly told me i needed to sign here, here, and here. hhmm? OK so lets start over. What is our goal here today? OH well we are going to decide if Jack is ready for Kindergarten and if he is what kind of intervention he will need in order to succeed. Oh really? Well- Here is the story- I am not signing anything at this time, he is not starting kindergarten in the fall and he is not in need of any more intervention than he has already. He has speech therapy four days a week and after being evaluated by two different developmental pediatricia...

We have had no snow this year, everyone else on the east coast has been slammed, we have officially had two snow occasions that were gone within two days. Jack has all his "snow attire" prepared. yet no snow. This foreboding map will hopefully qualify as an event. One that warrants boots, snow pants and TWO PAIR OF GLOVES!!!!! I have chili in the crock pot so there must be snow on the way, I am SOOO READY!!!

I have been working in my head on what to write about. A few flashes of ideas that kinda die out after the second paragraph. I walked the dog this morning after putting jack on the bus. I decided to stand in the cold by the river and just wait. wait, waiting.... yeah waiting for a message or sign. Not necessarily from anyone or in reference to anything in particular. It could be I was waiting for inspiration, motivation, DIVINE INTERVENTION. I like to feel MOVED, GUIDED by something ELSE. It doesnt happen often but I have felt it. Silly things such as "I need to kiss you, right now" "I will hug this child til he screams "LET GO MAAWM" "I am going to repeat myself in class until the lost soul in the back smiles at me and is WITH ME." That happens I must say. I feel rewarded at work maybe once a week. My rewards at work are much more valuable than many jobs I can imagine. I have people learning something. FROM ME. I see excitement, intensity and pride...

Posted the video because I love the song. My sentiments for tonight are about a topic I try not to dwell on. But today I was smacked with some truth. Since Andy was inthe Army and recently retired we were able to continue on the health insurance that comes with it. Our 18 months is up in another month. Andys insurance through his work is very expensive, 1200 a month for the family. My work does not offer insurance for its part time employees. We talked last night about searching for a plan for the family independently. Blue cross blue shield, aetna, something commercial for all of us and maybe it would be cheaper. I worked on it today and in the process found a search engine to quote some prices. I entered my cell phone number and info about the family and the gentleman was kind enough to return my call this evening. I had some time so he agreed to take some information and "find" a plan that would be great for all of us. Great I said. He asked the kids ages, my husbands a...