Flaming June's Love

Dear Dad, I hope you are doing well. We all miss you very much. We are now in the new house and I think we are all pretty happy. We went by the old house yesterday Missi and I, and it looks ok, but I still wish we were all there. I found this picture and thought of you. Is this where you are? Is heaven really in outer space or are you just somewhere around us in the dust and light that passes us everyday.? I hope that you arent too far away because I talk to you all the time and I hope you hear at least some of the stuff I talk about. Did you see the kids this week? They are having fun and being soo good. Mom is doing alright. She misses you and I think she is more lonely for you now than she ever was. I hope that you arent missing us this much. Anyway, I am still thinking of you all the time, I wish you were here to tell me the best thing to do, because I dont know if I make the right decisions all the time. I hope the time between now and when we see each other is not t...

My niece is here for vacation from New Mexico, yes why someone would come to PA in the winter from warm sunny new Mexico,,, it must be love. Anyway we are having a nice time and relaxing and kinda getting to know one another again. Time goes by and people grow and change, expectations are different and surprise, theres a new perspective. I am attaching some pics from the one evening with snow and Jack and the girls out there having fun in the "snow" slush falling form the sky.

I only follow four blogs. I read alot of blogs but four are all that really make me sit up and listen. If you peak at them you find married, religious, mothers, lesbians, republicans and democrats. Yeah I really like a mix. Kate from Sweet/saly is my favorite though. She has an incredible insight to her grief and love and mothering and womanhood and creativity.... and.... oh she just is all that good shtuuufff. The last two posts have put me into a blogging holding pattern. I can certainly blog about the house the kids Andy and my pretty boring life but I prefer to FEEL some topic and purge it to whomever is listening. I dont really know the politics of blogging but if I borrow her idea and follow her directions to find my own Vargas I will do it now. I truly took some time and searched the beautiful women her has captured and found her. Yes brunette, long legs, pretty big breasts but the reason I chose her for my Vargas is for two reasons the full smiling face and the mysterious...

Funny I get onto Blogger to post and this is number 500 post. Merry Christmas to all and everything that is sweet to you and yours. I have so much to spill. Good things... Christmas was technically a hit. I (after writing about my visit to the Dr and reporting just a cold) went to a different doctor then next day and have bronchitis and sinusitis. I have been feeling truly miserable since the 23 rd. The gifts were all wrapped and everything necessary for the big day was done. Other than the bagels for my brother and exhusband on Christmas morning I pretty much hit everything else. I do have really bad moments of feeling overwhelmed and out of control but all in all the day went well. The girls got alot of stuff, Allies big gift this year were a pair of aquamarine earrings beautiful, and Missi got a new dvd player forher room. The rest of the stuff is typical purses jewelry, socks, closthes, movies, sweaters, pj's, undies, makeup, perfume, lotions, journals, the regular.. Th...

I rememebr watching this movie with my girls a few years ago and thinking God I hope I amnot that crazy. Now I look back and I am that crazy. But I am an excellent Mom and they Love me for that. I drive them crazy but that is my job. I love you girls now and everyday. When you read this someday long from the date that is listed realize that I sat here on the couch and dreamed of both of you dreamed of your future, good bad and everything in between. I have loved you boundlessly since the moment you were born. Neihter of you have ever lost a second of love. Thank you for making me valuable in this world girls, You made me matter, I love you for that.