Flaming June's Love

OK so I am going to say some stuff here that I feel. I usually try not to go places that are going to ache me but I need to. Tomorrow my ex husband will be 46. \ We would be married twenty years in June. I know nothing is ever one persons fault but I do have alot of guilt over the demise of my first marriage. I was too young, I was not mature enough, blah blah blah. I hurt someone more than words can say. I hurt Tim sometimes just so I could feel something from him. He wasnt and still isnt a very outward talkative I dont know.. he didnt meet my emotional needs. I also had a very high sex drive, and we didnt do that much either. I was a kid, married at 22 baby 23 and just all swirled up inside. Where am I goin with this tonight, well... I am sorry to him. I feel alot of remorse for the pain I caused him. I really think we werent meant to be together for life but that doesnt excuse my really REALLY BAD BEHAVIOR>. I did alot of cheating. I may have been emotionally needy but I s...

Artist: John Mayer Album: Unknown Title: Say Take all of your wasted honor Every little past frustration Take all of your so-called problems, Better put ‘em in quotations Say what you need to say [x8] Walking like a one man army Fighting with the shadows in your head Living out the same old moment Knowing you’d be better off instead, If you only could . . . Say what you need to say [x8] Have no fear for giving in Have no fear for giving over You’d better know that in the end Its better to say too much Then never say what you need to say again Even if your hands are shaking And your faith is broken Even as the eyes are closing Do it with a heart wide open Say what you need to say [x24]

This is Suzie's oh-so awesome daughter,Missi. I saw that little diddy of a translation of that tombstone, and it just didn't look so right, SO!, I went and translated it myself...I got something a little more believeable, but it's still rough around the edges, if I do say so myself. Consecrated itself during THE whole duration of the war to the soldiers and to the injuries is rest has this effect 100 years to France. Now then, I hope all of you readers learned some French today. The professor Bailey will be back next wekk for even MORE amazing translations of wonder and awe. SO STAY TUNED,KIDS! AND REMEMBER, GET OUT YOUR LITTLE ORPHAN ANNIE DECODER RINGS TO FIND A SECRET MESSAGE. =D

These are a few more headstones that I loved. I can imagine myself walking this cemetary for many more years and getting to know each corner as old friends or guardians. I have also attached two of my river pics. the day I was sliding into the cold edge of the water to become compost at the end of the river somewhere. Yeah this was that day. I dont feel much like mulch today, I dont like that place.

Andy was supposed to go out of town yesterday but he stayed home until today and I can tell you it was the best 24 hours we spent together in a long time. As I said before we had a nice dinner last night together, we visited the goats yesterday with Jack with pics to show how nice it went. Today I took ANdy with Jacka nd I for our 2 mile walk Ive been doing for the past few weeks. He enjoyed it as much as Jack and I do. I am attaching some pics from the cemetary. My brother Dave will so much enjoy them I know. He will surely notice the names and dates inscribed in so many of them. I personally love the angels and the inscriptions. I am attaching the bael fish translation of the French stone. So in love with all of these photos and all the souls that dance through my head for the rest of my day. IS CONSACRE' E THROUGHOUT ALL QUERRE TO the SOLDIERS AND WITH WOUND IS RESTE' E to this end CINO YEARS IN France

Another beautiful day here in NEPA. What entirely made it beautiful were these two men in my life fill me. Jack as beautiful as any child should be allowed to be. Andy as generous as any man created. I looked at these pics on the screen of my computer and was truly awed by them. I see LOVE in Andys eyes for this boy and cant imagine him never having been a Dad. He and I went for dinner tonight alone and bonded. We laughed and were silly. It was really really nice. I wanted to share these pics from this afternoon. Lucky me.

Love my guy