Flaming June's Love

Can i say yes>>? I watched Greys anatomy tonight as usual. And there were moments of my time that flashed before my eyes as usual with incredible writing and directing. George standing with a grieving father debating whether to accept his dead daughters heart for his own transplant. George explaining to the father that although he is not a father he can speak as a child that if he could give his heart for his father, he would. If there was anything he could do to bring his Dad back he would do it. I so understood that. I dont like to sound overdramatic but of anyone in the world i would give my life for I wouldnt think twice about my three children. I would give my life for them in no thought or blink of an eye. Jack was evaluated today by the intermediate unit today. They had screening for speech and developmental problems at his daycare and they found reason to investigate a speech delay. OK, so now what. They will be coming to my home to watch himf or the day and see how ...

Hubby busy painting all day and I stop by with the baby to give him food and snapple and a big kiss. He is working really hard and as you can see he is so happy doing it. This is his dream to build this house. He is doing an amazing job and I love him with all my heart. As you can see he painted a heart with our initials in it behind the fridge. No one will know it is there except all of blogdom and anyone who moves the fridge. LOL The last is the baby asleep last night after Missi my hero found the camera shoved under the computer table. He has the croop so he can be a lil cranky to say the least. I am definately feeling better and out of my funk. I got my period this morning and think I might chart this month to see if this immense weight of depression could possibly be related to my menstrual cycle. Anyway all is well and I have my camera back and the baby is sleeping, Allie is in the city fopr the day with her BF Joey. I thought they would be over by now but they are hangi...

True it is gorgeous and virtually indestructable. We shall see.

My Dad would have been 68 yesterday. I know that I shouldn't be grieving so much for so long but I find myself simply mourning our loss over and over again. Events that he should have been with us at. Holidays, birthdays, anything, he should be here. So he is not and I have to let that go and adjust to the new way things are. Along with the new way things are in my life. My home, my children, my husband, my work, my health. Nothing is the way it was, or moreso the way I thought it would be, moreso the way I wanted it to be. I am through the latest bought with the blues, (I really shouldnt call it the blues it is worse than that but I will deal with that definition another time.) I need to make an appointment with my doctor to get back on some medication or something for my ups and down. I have more downs than ups. I dont feel bipolar. I think I have some depression. I wish I had some OCD so I could get my fuc*&^ing house cleaned up and packed. This is a very disjointed po...

I am feeling alot better than I was. I really dont know what triggers these episodes but they can be debilitating. I just wake up feeling like I have no reason to get out of bed. I see things alot clearer out of the fog, but it is truly believable in that state. Heres the latest lowdown on everyone. Allie is fine at school. She is making friends and is doing well in her classes. Missi is doing fine at the Deemer. Roadblocks along the way that hust hit her as rediculous, ( me too) but if I say too much she has a point when she says she wants to leave there. Jack currently has the croup. Horrible sounding and even worse to watch him try to catch his breath. He is on steroids for three days to decrease the swelling and he is now sleeping. I hope we can all get a good nights sleep tonight. I am attaching pics ( I hope ) One is of Missi and her boyfriend Jared. One of Joe and Jack from the summer they fell asleep together in the grass so much like brothers. Last pic of Jack and his ...