Flaming June's Love

Now that Jack is feeling better we have been able to get out and get some shopping done. We have been out everyday this week. One of the perks of being a stay at home mom at this point is that luxury. I was working as a single mom of two girls and scratching my ass for money and wouldnt go back there for anything. Although the rewards of seeing MY OWN STUFF worked for paid for and enjoyed by ME. Anyway I know and appreciate how lucky I am at this point to be at home. I saw a woman at the grocery store today I haven seen in years and of course she asked about Jack and how my girls were. All was well with her. Anyway she said wishes she had taken a chance again after her divcorce and tried to meet someone. I told her it is never too late to meet someone and fall in love. She was teary eyed and said she was lonely because of Christmas. I encouraged her to get out to night school, hobbies, bookstores, book club, dance lessons, on line dating, church, the local Lowes, home depo...

I cant put into words what this child did and continues to do to me on a daily basis. I literally died three days after his birth. I had no idea what it meant to love someone "to death". I do now. I believe he was brought to this earth for more than just the reasons I can imagine. There is something else inhis little soul. Something behind the eyes that are the bluest I have ever seen. You can see the soul of him in there. My heart stopped beating and I saw the other side for a fdew monets. No tunnel or anything just my gransfather telling it wasnt time yet. I need to rrealize my gift of life. Instead of rehashing my faults and errors, I need to move ahead and LIVE. I have gratitude, just not enough. I have been humbled, but not everyday humility. How can I doubt my purpose with those eyes looking at me everyday, and loving me for just me.?

OK so years ago I worked for a particular physician that I found to be charming, intelligent and extremely intelligent. He and I had a rapport that was really quite amazing. I worked well with him and could almost tell what he needed and wanted before he asked. We worked in detox together so addicts are usually unpredictable and we had a routine that worked well. He was devoted to his "family" which consisted of his girlfriend and her two daughters. We never got together or anyhting outside of work as couples but often talked about getting the girls togehter and hang out or something. I hadnt heard or seen him in a few years until one day this summer I saw him, he looked awful and told me that he and "Cathy" had broken up. Sorry to hear that, blah blah. Tonight I get a call from the DON from that same facility after about 6 months to find out how I am doing since the loss of my dad and the her dad died and all kinds of shit- ANYWAY- I told her I saw Dr. X and ...

Andy, Jack and I went to the Armory today for the family of soldiers luncheon. It was very nice and lots of people with their soldiers. Jack got to see santa and we got a few pics on his lap. He was a good boy. While we were out Tim and the girls got the christmas tree and put it up with lights and trimmings it is pretty. The other decorations are slowly getting together so all is well. I sm feeling ok today. I really dont know what I would do without my husband he so supportive. I think he has just grown into this amazing man. He always looked and acted like a man, just didnt have the heart yet. This little boy has changed him, and I hope I have had some good to do with the change as well. I have loved him every minute since I met him. We are not perfect but I think when we fight we are as passionate as when we make up. In a good way. I know in the past we have had our bad hard times but that is a long time ago. We are a team and I love him.

The pic of the girls makes them look "tough" that is as tough as they get pretty funny I think at 7 am before school. The other pic is of Allie and her BF Joey. He is away at college but will be home for the holidays . Hes a good kid so I dont complain.

Was invited to and enjoyed attending a cookie party. Yup cookies by the dozen. I makde eight dozen cookies, one for each person attending and they each did the same. We all arrive at Alice's house and exchange our dozens and everyone goes home with eight dozen different cookies for the holidays. What is the good part well we drank wine and talked and drank wine and giggled and laughed out loud and reminisced. All good things at this point. Jack has been sick the past week with a wicked ear infection which made him even more of a bugger in the sleep area. He is right now up in our bed with Daddy. They are snuggled under the blankets with the arms over their heads identical. He looks more like his Dad everyday and I like it. The only thing distinctive of me is the blue eyes. I hope to attach a recent photo. The girls are fine Missi is at a sleepover and Allie got kicked last night while cheering . She has a sore chest muscle and is having trouble raising her arm. I had ...