Flaming June's Love

XLIII. "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways..." by Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861) How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. I love thee to the level of everyday's Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. I love thee with a passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.

"Ashes" Ashes to ashes and dust to dust that's what has become of our love and trust Love has no direction cause love has no aim love can leave you as fast as she came Meeting is such sweet sorrow cause someday we may have to part hush don't you make a sound you're gonna let me down Good things come to those who wait but good things are gone from those who are late All that I am is all I can give but with or without you my life I must live Meeting is such sweet sorrow cause someday we may have to part hush don't you make a sound you're gonna let me down Living ain't easy since you've been gone no one else can please me or make me feel home Forgetting ain't easy you stay on my mind thoughts of us haunt me can't leave them behind

Today my Mom turned an amazing 69. She is staying with Rick for another month. ANOTHER MONTH!!! I love that she is away and enjoying herself. If I could do anything for my Mom for her Birthday..... I would get all of us kids together for a long vacation all together and just laugh. I would buy her all the flowers for her porch contest this summer. I would take her one night a week to the club for dinner to hang with her buddies. I would call her three times a day and visit more often. I would let Jack sleep in her bed with her so she could snuggle with someone again. I would take her to vegas and wait for hours while she played the slots. I would keep my house neater so she wouldnt feel like she had to clean every time she came to visit. I would buy her a raincoat with all bright colors so she would'nt mind going out in the rain. I would give her a summer from twenty five years ago when she lived out the mountain and LOVED IT!!!!! I would send her back to the house in Thornhurst ...

I was at school today and thought I would google SUZITUZI. I wanted to be reminded of what I wrote last night. Guess what popped up? This post, which I had forgotten about. Dont believe someone is wanting you to get back to the flock.? I beleive this post was brought to my attention for a reason. I have nearly a thousand posts through the past four years. God is watching out for me, wants me to let go of my doubts and fears and believe. There is a sense of relief in letting go of the "need to know" Enjoy my post from 4/8/07. I certainly did. ted by Flaming June at 11:36 PM 0 comments Sunday, April 08, 2007 heaven, holding babies. So this is a picture of heaven according to someone at nasa. Im down with that idea looks ok. IS this Jesus? Is He the son of God, the salvation and one way to heaven. This is what he looks like in Suzidom Lots and Lots of flowers. My heaven blooms of every color. Trees with leaves that change the colors of fall but never fall off. Breezes that bl...

It is a bad thing to lose faith. It is bad for your overall health to not believe in something. I believe in Love, I believe in the goodness of people. I like the idea of doing for someone else so that someday a good will be shown to you. What I am losing is... my faith. I am wondering, doubting the potential of the something else. I wanted it so bad I believe I went past it. Here is my latest thought. How can we as human beings think we are so important in this vast immense universe that we will "LIVE" on. How is it that all things are "LIVING" will plants and animals move on the "Heaven"? We are specks truly specks in the vastness of the universe and beyond. Did GOD create us and place us here and not do ANYTHING with any of the other billions of planets? Is the IDEA of GOD just that? an idea to ease the thought of truly being ALONE IN THE WORLD? Not having the ALL knowing ALL seeing being keeping check on us can lead to anarchy. People would do whatev...

I sat on the swing. As an 8 year old girl setting with her darling grandfather snuggled up against him. We were never waiting for anything, nor were we post anything new. We would sit and chat, sit or swing and sing. This poem he recited to me as often as I could get him too. His voice deep and charming, spooky. Oh what a nice moment to remember. I hope I will see you again and hear you tell me this again.

I am on Allies computer so she has pictures that I dont. I thought I would share with all some of her stuff.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise Black bird singing in the dead of night Take these sunken eyes and learn to see all your life you were only waiting for this moment to be free Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night. Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night. Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise, You were only waiting for this moment to arise, You were only waiting for this moment to arise

I have been thinking about this post for a few weeks now. Andy's cousin Karen B died at 45 from breast cancer two weeks ago. We went to see her the weekend before she died to say goodbye and it was very sad. As we were driving home I was trying to remember the times that we were together and why she was so special. I remember the first time we met at Andy's aunts house. It was a summer party and we were all outside. She was sitting on the patio and drinking a beer. she greeted me as the new person with a hug and a huge smile and a conversation that made you think we were friends for many years. She had a contagious smile and laugh that drew attention. Not because it was intrusive but so heartfelt. She played the guitar and drank Jack Daniels shots at partys and always had one for whoever was walking by. I remember hearing years ago that she had breast cancer. Scary thought but she is tough and they caught it so early. She went through radiation and chemo and the next time...

I have found that songs and lyrics are in direct relationship with time and place for me. This song was popular at a time when Tim and I were in the last breathes of our marriage. I knew it was over yet had no idea that I could be partly responsible for the END. I can now look back and recognize my huge errors. That said, I wouldnt change a thing. The song talks about how you build your life around someone else and how whent he person changes or leaves you are changed. Who and what you are is defined by that other person. Not wholly, but they are part of your label. Now I listen to that song and I realize that I am no longer defined by my husband. My Andy adds to who and what I am. I moreso enjoy the reference to how my girls are changing and adding more to my life on a daily basis. Missi got her acceptance letter to the college of art of her choice. Her first choice school critiqued her portfolio and have her three assignments to do and they chose her for the class begining Fall...