Flaming June's Love

And the apples are nice too.

I lived in East Stroudsburg PA 6 months after we were married. I was newly pregnant and 22 years old. I had lived with my Mom from day one and away at college had the mighty meal ticket. I tried to make "meals" for my husband but honestly I had NO F*&^ing clue where to start. There were ramen dinners, spaghetti and lots and lots of fried bologna. My Father used to go back and forth between PA and NJ periodically for meetings at the firehouse. Our home was halfway between. Dad would stop by and visit for a few minutes then I would ask if he wanted coffee? "sure, Ill take a cup." I would get a new pot going and then sit again at the kitchen table to chat about the news from wherever he had been. I would pour his coffee and he would ask me to make it "like yours" I always had whole milk and real sugar in the house. Real butter and real eggs were rationed sine his cholesterol and waistline were growing since his retirement. Anytime he would vis...

Rain is pummeling the house. If I looked outside there must be stones falling from the sky. Jack and Andy went for their Saturday morning dippies. Of course you know dippies are grilled cheese sandwiches with ketchup on the side. They went to the hockey game last night and I went out with Joann for sushi and a couple sakitini's. I am now sitting here with a house that is quiet and relatively clean since the boys stayed in bed for a bit longer today since it was cartoons with fruit snacks. I want to go to the grocery store, maybe get a big fat roast to throw in the crock pot with maybe a pie to make this afternoon. I enjoy the cooking, more importantly I love to watch anyone eat what I made. There is so much LOVE poured into any meal that is made with someone else in mind. I can imagine Andy eating a hunk of pot roast with mashed taters and glazed carrots. That in turn makes me want to cook it. I can see Jack asking for "More, Mommy, More please." HHHUUUUUURRRRY!!!!...

Im hungry, but feel sick to my stomach. I hope I am not brewing some funk. Andy is away all week and that is usually a necessary evil accompanied by my own tv at night and any music in the kitchen I want. Problem being that if I am sick or the boy is sick I am pretty much the one and only. Its going to be ok though because I have free HBO and Cinemax for the next month or so. Along with a thousand books I need to read, hours at the gym, notes to write, blogging to do, people to reconnect with, bloodwork to have done (fasting). Oh yeah so I have alot to do but, I have free HBO this month. Enough said.

Hey I'd like to talk to you. Yeah you the one typing without anything to say. I want you to know that you are pretty damn lucky to be lying in your queen size bed next to a man that talks to you in his sleep. He may kick the blankets out every night from their perfectly tucked position but hey It could be worse. He comes home from work and wants to kiss you EVERYDAY. Your girls, well they are always on time, when you give them a curfew and they usually call when they are supposed to. They say they love you EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. They are beautiful, smart, and most importantly funny. They dont take themselves too seriously and have never been accused of being quitters. Nothing worse than a quitter. Your little boy? well you know the one that didnt talk? well he is talking. ALOT!! He told you about his walk with Daddy tonight on his bike, and how he pedalled all the way up the hill and went WEEEEE all the way down. He kisses you "many many many times Mommy" all wet snot...

Andy- this is our wedding song. I was watching tv this morning about the young lady that was kidnapped many years zago and just found, I was sad and thinking about my girls. He saw me sad and put this song on for me. He is My Life..... I loved you more. My Mom- When I was a little girl my MOm would play her records. The record player was in the living room and when my Dad wasnt home she would have a marathon. I would sit on the floor and look at all the record covers. I examined every inch and detail. I had never seen any broadway shows, nor had I any idea what the words meant but boy I knew all the words strung together. Singing my heart out about Lipshitz, and "he had it coming!" My Mom used to vhs MTV videos that she liked and then when it was quiet she would push play and listen to her favorite stuff!!! No wonder we all love music and a good dance.