Flaming June's Love

Yeah I was cranky girl yesterday. Could you tell. I feel better today and pulled myself together. Sorry for the spewing. I hope this cheery video will help us all pick up and start over again. Along with a hysterical chuckle that Allie showed me last night.

I love that saying, easy as shooting fish in a barrel. I feel that way. I am sometimes the fish. swimming swimming swimming, round in circles. But then again some fish will eat the other fish in the barrel and overthrow the residing barrel government and anarchy will ensue. The fish that felt like a target before will now find that the other fish in the barrel were just a distraction, yet were necessary in the long term outcome of survival of the fittest. I like fish land, in barrel country. This fish is feeling a little better now, thanks for listening.

Beautiful part: my girl going to Temple. Horrible heartache part: my girl going to Temple.

My boys and I went for dinner tonight for chinese. After dinner we went to Chuckie Cheese, it was a good night. We went to get Missis hair done today for the prom which was tonight. While we waited for her to be finished we went for a walk through the building which is full of new business's and offices. One business is a budding "artist" photographer. We strolled past her window of her work. Allie and I both loved her stuff. Very natural beautiful light and stunning sittings of children. We stopped and looked i her main window and both gasped... the largest size poster photograph in her window was a child that looked JUST LIKE JACK> JUST LIKE HIM we looked at each other and both said that is so much looking like Jack... My head began to swim, I got dizzy, felt my heart pound and felt the blood drain from my face. It was a picture of MY JACK How could a total stranger have a poster size photo of my son in her studio window? Beautiful yes, but when, how, where ...

Can you just see us i the background there. I can. Love my Andy.

Something on my mind and I need to vent. Andy and I have friends that seem to have more money to spend than we have rocks in the yard. Believe me we have lots and lots of rocks. The couple have been friends of ours for many years and I have always loved them both and have cherished their friendship. I am finding it harder and harder to maintain the friendship. Friendships shouldnt need maintenance. Should they? I know the obstacles are there but they shouldnt be so daunting if there was a true friendship there. Hmm? Is this my envy blood kicking in.? I enjoy their company laugh alot when we are with them but then feel as if we have so few things in common anymore that our goals are not the same. I have and remain a home body. I like being here. I would like very much to get away with my husband for a well deserved vacation but with the house and kids and everything else it is not in our near future. They just returned from a Mexican 5 day jaunt with their friends the Dr and ...