Flaming June's Love

I remember how this feels. Love that is new and fresh and nervous. Allie is at the begining a new experience. She and Joey have ended their relationship. I know they still care for each other but they have reached a point where they are too far apart. I know her heart is aching. I also know she will be ready for a new relationship when the time comes. She told me the other night that she is afraid she wont meet anyone. Life is so short in some aspects, but then again there is so much time to get to the places we dream of. True Love is not always right around the corner. It may not be anywhere easy. The journey to Love....is life. Life is what happens while we watch our days pass.

My sister in law found my blog. My sister in law that has known me the longest. The one that KNOWS ME> We began as friends in maybe 1981? Before she started dating my brother. We laughed alot and shared alot of dreams together. Time has been good, bad, ugly and kind to both of us. I know my brother has broken her heart. I would fix it if I could. I want to say everything will be alright. It wont. I have been where she is, how we got there are different but I was divorced from someone I loved. I wanted to stay with my first husband. Badly. She wants to stay with my brother, no matter how ugly the situation is getting I believe she wants to try with him. Time changes people and I think my Fathers death changed my brother. He was an example of husband and father in our eyes. I remember thinking how they had it all together. I guess as much as we know is as much we dont know. Either way, fair warning, if you read any farther, or go back there might be stuff you dont like. ...

Valentines Day 2009. Allie went to see her boyfriend so it was the four of us in the house for the weekend. Missi spent her time with her guy and they had a nice weekend. she made him a cake from scratch might I add. Along with a batch of cookies. I must say after my post concerning the lack of enthusiasm for the holiday I must digress. My husband put his heart into the Valentines day this year. He ordered a book for me. That means he thought about it earlier than just the day before. He got me a book of Mary Cassatts works. I have loved her work forever and it definately took some thought for him to remember her. I also received a card with real WORDS, written by him, from his heart. Those mena more to me than any card words. So when Andy does come on by and check my blog, Love you babe. The oher latest is that I LOVE MY BROTHER. I love all my brothers. I love them more right now than I thought I did. Why? Dave called and comforted me when we heard that Danny joined the M...

I Love My Husband. I love him even on the days when I cant look at him for one more second. So tell me what is Valentines Day? I have my belief, It is the day when you tell the ones that you love that ... You Love Them. I tell Andy I love him everyday. Yup even more than once a day. In the middle of the night I tell him I love him. He may not hear me but I hear me. I tell him I love You on the phone when we are about to hang up. Then there are days we hang up and I say it and then say jerk.... I may not like him at that monet but dammit I Love him. My guy is in Arizona for business this week. He is working and he is having fun Im sure. I miss him. I want to tell him I love him. I love him for working for us. I love him for loving me when I am not terribly lovable. He loves our son, he loves my girls. He loves my family. He pays the bills, he makes "ends Meet" He makes me feel wanted, appreciated and valuable. So on this Valentines day I will get a card that says so...

Things look bleak, discouraged, disenchanted. A little hope and positive unity certainly cant hurt... so for those that dont agree on the political fine points please agree to give change a chance. I need to do more, big words without action is pride and self absorption, I dont want that to be me. I need courage and insight into what a change I can make even in small steps and doses. Because if Barack Obama says Yes We Can, I think I am going to believe him. Not because he is black or democrat, but because he holds my childrens future in his hands at this point. I dont want to fight or be a naysayer I want to be a positive voice in the process. Why does the attitude of hope and courage need to be looked down upon as futile and empty? I choose Hope tonight, for all of us.

I have been feeling this swirling heat, not quite nausea, but a fair mix of pride and anxiety. I feel an urgency to either be bursting with excitement for my nephew and an uncontainable fear for my entire family. My nephew Danny has joined the United States Marine Corps. He has not yet finished his first year of college but has committed the next 6 years of his life to serving his country. Is he answering a call of manhood to prove something to himself? Is he answering the inherent drive to go and be something bigger and better? I dont know, I dont know if he knows. What I do know is that his life will forever change on May 11 when he gets on the bus to go to Parris Island. He will return from there a different person. The reserved quiet respectable young man will come home, something else. That something else or that someone else is someone no one knows, we havent met him yet, Daniel Thadeaus Jones- The Marine, will come home and be a new man in our lives. I will love him, r...

I remember this was a poem that my brother Dave read as part of his toast at Ricks Wedding, It will always be that moment in time for me but such beautiful sentiment and love portrayed in the words, Maybe at my funeral, a good message to people I love and leave behind to keep on going and live life everyday. So ther said I now have three songs for my funeral Bob Dylan FOrever Young. Eva Cassidy somewhere over the rainbow Flogging Molly I know ther is more but man I am tired tonight. Love to all.