Flaming June's Love

We walked in the snow tonight. In the night that was lit by glowing white snow on the ground. He kicked up fluffs which sparkled off his red hat. His nose was red, his cheeks rosy. He walked and ran and chatted about everything. the mud, the footprints, the snowflakes, his boots, The rabbits, the other kids, the river, the water, the dog, my boots, the snowplows. It was dark out but the sky was glowing of of the whiteness of the ground. We walked by the river and heard water running past us to a faraway place. Cold, swirling dark. We walked past a few homes with their lights all shining inside. So cozy in there. We walked down to where the road ends and looked at our own house and I said "Do you like our house too Jack?" "Oh Mommy its the best house ever!" Oh thats because we love each other there. "Oh Mommy I love you with all my heart" Good then lets go home and get cozy snuggly. "OK lets go get Fumfy." He is now asleep and I am in bed wat...

"I pray you'll be alright And watch us where we go And help us to be wise In times when we don't know Let this be our prayer When we lose our way Lead us to a place Guide us with your grace To a place where we'll be safe I pray we'll find your light And hold it in our hearts When stars go out each night Remind us where you are Let this be our prayer When shadows fill our day Lead us to a place Guide us with your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe A world where pain and sorrow Will be ended And every heart that's broken Will be mended And we'll remember we Are all God's children Reaching out to touch you Reaching to the sky We ask that life be kind And watch us from above We hope that soon we'll find Another soul to love Let this be our prayer Just like every child Lead to find a place Guide us with your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe..."

Well- We had snow, My best guy and I went for a walk. The gate is across the street from our home and in the field next to the river. Beautiful Jack Got a haircut, boo, We went tot he museum Yeahhh. Missi built a snowman, yippeeee. Best funny part tomorrow is senior skip day and we told her she couldnt skip. Teasingly, said no your going. Andy was very convincing and I guess she was pissed. She took her shower and left us a message for our shower night. Senior skip or bust. SHe is sweet smart and I love hr more every second of every day. She earned her skip day. BTW the letters are Jacks for his vocab growth. In the shower- hey whatever it is whatever it takes right? My brain is inside my skull. I saw it last night during my MRI of the brain. I have had a tremor of the right hand and arm. About two months or so. the Dr being overreactive and checking for all the diseases that you would rather take the pipe than have. MS, Parkinsons, yeah all happy words that turn your head into ...

Slow down, we've got time left to be lazy All the kids have bloomed from babies into flowers in our eyes. We've got 50 good years left to spend out in the garden I don't care to beg your pardon, We should live until we die. We were barely 18 when we'd crossed collective hearts. It was cold, but it got warm when you'd barely crossed my eye. and then you turned, put out your hand, and you asked me to dance. I knew nothing of romance, but it was love at second sight. I swear when I grow up, I won't just buy you a rose. I will buy the flower shop, and you will never be lonely. Even if the sun stops waking up over the fields I will not leave, I will not leave 'till it's our time. So just take my hand, you know that I will never leave your side. It was the winter of '86, and all the fields had frozen over. So we moved to Arizona to save our only son and now he's turning to a man, although he thinks just like his mother, he believes we're all just l...

"Fix You" When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down on your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Tears stream down on your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down on your face And on your face I... Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

Today I had the meeting with the local school district to discuss the possibility of Jack beginning Kindergarten this fall. I brought school work, pictures he has drawn and a few notes from his teacher. When I sat down at the table with the two women I introduced myself and then asked for them to remind me who they were? One was a rep fro the Early intervention that has Jacks case since he was two, the other woman was a child psychologist. OK? They quickly told me i needed to sign here, here, and here. hhmm? OK so lets start over. What is our goal here today? OH well we are going to decide if Jack is ready for Kindergarten and if he is what kind of intervention he will need in order to succeed. Oh really? Well- Here is the story- I am not signing anything at this time, he is not starting kindergarten in the fall and he is not in need of any more intervention than he has already. He has speech therapy four days a week and after being evaluated by two different developmental pediatricia...

We have had no snow this year, everyone else on the east coast has been slammed, we have officially had two snow occasions that were gone within two days. Jack has all his "snow attire" prepared. yet no snow. This foreboding map will hopefully qualify as an event. One that warrants boots, snow pants and TWO PAIR OF GLOVES!!!!! I have chili in the crock pot so there must be snow on the way, I am SOOO READY!!!

I have been working in my head on what to write about. A few flashes of ideas that kinda die out after the second paragraph. I walked the dog this morning after putting jack on the bus. I decided to stand in the cold by the river and just wait. wait, waiting.... yeah waiting for a message or sign. Not necessarily from anyone or in reference to anything in particular. It could be I was waiting for inspiration, motivation, DIVINE INTERVENTION. I like to feel MOVED, GUIDED by something ELSE. It doesnt happen often but I have felt it. Silly things such as "I need to kiss you, right now" "I will hug this child til he screams "LET GO MAAWM" "I am going to repeat myself in class until the lost soul in the back smiles at me and is WITH ME." That happens I must say. I feel rewarded at work maybe once a week. My rewards at work are much more valuable than many jobs I can imagine. I have people learning something. FROM ME. I see excitement, intensity and pride...

Posted the video because I love the song. My sentiments for tonight are about a topic I try not to dwell on. But today I was smacked with some truth. Since Andy was inthe Army and recently retired we were able to continue on the health insurance that comes with it. Our 18 months is up in another month. Andys insurance through his work is very expensive, 1200 a month for the family. My work does not offer insurance for its part time employees. We talked last night about searching for a plan for the family independently. Blue cross blue shield, aetna, something commercial for all of us and maybe it would be cheaper. I worked on it today and in the process found a search engine to quote some prices. I entered my cell phone number and info about the family and the gentleman was kind enough to return my call this evening. I had some time so he agreed to take some information and "find" a plan that would be great for all of us. Great I said. He asked the kids ages, my husbands a...